Hi sweetie
I feel like I'm going numb. I don't feel like anything. Guys hitting on me means nothing, I laugh it off and think in the back of my mind 'is he mocking me?'. I go out with friends shopping and nothing seems to look nice and I don't feel like buying anything; food tastes ok but its not satisfying anymore, music sounds nice but its like a mirage and I think ' I wish I had my piano and that I could play it a little bit'.
Have you ever felt this numb? Have you thought everything is worthless? It feels like you are a dead person amongst the living. You feel grey and while looking around you find no escape.
Well I guess it cannot be helped can it? Everything moves very slow and at the same time very fast. Everything has stopped and at the same time days pass by very fast like the earth is on the run and needs to go somewhere very fast.
Well, my head hurts, I'll try to come back soon and talk to you more. Be well and take care of yourself.
I love you
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