I know I'm the laziest person in the world who could start a blog, but I guess for me this is more like a diary. Yes I know i should go and buy a notebook or make an offline file instead of an online blog and all but sometimes you want another person to read your thoughts. The thoughts that well cannot be shared with the people close by.
So, exams are done and more or less It was alright. I'll pass all of them and I'll get another degree. God knows what I wanna do with all of these. I'm planning to join a gym and stop dancing in the street while walking home. Sometimes I wonder if people who see me dancing and singing find me crazy but who cares I guess my weird act might bring a smile on someone else's face and make their day so be it. The other thing is that I feel empty, do you think if I find myself a boyfriend to kill time this will change? And yes i want to kill time cause I don't think I can love. Maybe if there was someone who would try to break the ice around my frozen heart and break the chains and free me... Don't know. I have found a comfort zone in my loneliness and I'm not even sure if a relationship can save me from that, but I think it's dangerous for me to stay like this and that I need to change it. I'm not sure if I am strong enough to do it alone though and that is why I need someone like you to listen to me and be my strength.
Leaving the depressing things aside I wanted to tell you something funny. I want to change my style and I'm looking for a new one. the one's i like are too flashy cause i always go for gothic, rock sort of look and I don't think it suits me. The other option for someone like me would be either start wearing very girly and pinky things which are too much of a hassle if you ask me, or start acting like a lady and were sexy and not cute type which is not me. I guess its hard to change a tomboy like me into a decent looking lady, cause i always think its too much of a hassle to try and look nice all the time. Considering my mom is always like that, a sexy beautiful lady I don't know who I took after this laziness.
Well, I'm off to bed I need to catch some sleep before I go back to work tomorrow, by the way I love Block B's new track nillili mambo. oh, there is i wish by FT Island and Don't hate me by Epik high and before I forget there is WOW by BTOB. I think these four tracks and of course G Dragon's One of a kind and Crayon are the best ones for these past two months and I think I can listen to them for a long time since i just love everything about these songs. Oh, well I'm off now, its getting late.
I love you
Goodnight
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