Birthday

Hi Sweetie

Today is my birthday and I turned 30. I kinda think I'm too old now, but I guess age is another number. I don't remember if I told you about this but I joined an otaku forum and started watching more anime. I joined mostly cause I read too many mangas but now I have shifted to anime. The problem is I can't find as many manga or anime products here as in Japan so I don't think I'll ever be a full fledged otaku, but I'll try my best to become one that you can be proud of.

Do you think anything is going to be different for me now that I have finished the 3rd decade of my life and have started a new one? DO you think I might be able to find love and settle down? I'm sitting on my bed and writing to you, thinking that I have not accomplished anything. I have a bunch of qualifications but no jobs I live in a good country but I'm not a resident. I read manga and watch anime but I'm not an otaku. Its like everything i do is never complete and I feel incomplete too. To be honest I was not like this. i was lazy but i was complete. I used to finish everything I started but now not so much. What should I do? When will I meet you and when will the scars on my heart heal?

Leaving that apart, I was thinking it would have been nice if I could find and kiss 30 handsome guys on my birthday, what do you think? Its a nice dare don't you think? Kissing as many people as your age on your birthday. Maybe I should get out of the house again and do this. I'll let you know if I do something as crazy as that later.

I love you