Trip

Hi sweetie

So, I'm gonna go on a trip for a week tonight. Do you think I'll find you there? Sometimes I think Where and when we are destined to meet since now I'm 30 and I think maybe its gonna be too late to love you. Sometimes i think its too lonely here without you, and I wish with all my might to see you sooner.

Oh well, I've gotta go, now.

I love you

Birthday

Hi Sweetie

Today is my birthday and I turned 30. I kinda think I'm too old now, but I guess age is another number. I don't remember if I told you about this but I joined an otaku forum and started watching more anime. I joined mostly cause I read too many mangas but now I have shifted to anime. The problem is I can't find as many manga or anime products here as in Japan so I don't think I'll ever be a full fledged otaku, but I'll try my best to become one that you can be proud of.

Do you think anything is going to be different for me now that I have finished the 3rd decade of my life and have started a new one? DO you think I might be able to find love and settle down? I'm sitting on my bed and writing to you, thinking that I have not accomplished anything. I have a bunch of qualifications but no jobs I live in a good country but I'm not a resident. I read manga and watch anime but I'm not an otaku. Its like everything i do is never complete and I feel incomplete too. To be honest I was not like this. i was lazy but i was complete. I used to finish everything I started but now not so much. What should I do? When will I meet you and when will the scars on my heart heal?

Leaving that apart, I was thinking it would have been nice if I could find and kiss 30 handsome guys on my birthday, what do you think? Its a nice dare don't you think? Kissing as many people as your age on your birthday. Maybe I should get out of the house again and do this. I'll let you know if I do something as crazy as that later.

I love you

Happy New Year

Hi sweetie

Happy 2013. Well to be honest I'm not sure if the 13th year of the new century is something I would want to celebrate since we are talking about the number "13" and it is said that it brings bad luck and all.

Well "Densha Otoko" is finished. I could say it's very funny and nice. I did enjoy my time watching it. I guess they had added a lot more funny scenes to the story to make it more interesting and a little bit of imagination and all. i wonder if there are forums and threads like that in english. I wouldn't mind joining one again. To be honest I found many great friends through Orkut 7-8 years ago when it was popular.I still am in-touch with those friends and they are very precious to me so the movie brought back the memories of those days when I couldn't wait to get home and online to read the others' posts and reply. We used to make up games and play and through those games and times we shared we found friendship. Well, unlike what happens in drama we organized meetings and we became friends outside the world of the internet. I actually am proud to say I found my best best friend through those threads and she has been an inseparable  part of my life since.

Well, I'm off for a shower since its too hot to just sit under the AC all day. I'll probably drop by again soon, since I have decided to talk to you more and maybe with you here beside me I can overcome my trauma and maybe find you.

I love you

p.s: There is only nine more days to my birthday, it would be nice if you could come and say happy birthday to me on that day.