It's been a while

Hi 

Sorry, I've been busy with school and stuff. Its like life is running as fast as it can and I'm trying to catch up, out of breath and tiered but I guess there is no stopping.

So, I was talking about the disastrous relationships. So, just before I left home to come down under, I met this guy who apparently is considered a good catch. Oh well, he is rich, he's getting his PhD and comes from a good family and everyone says he is very responsible and a gentleman and all. So my mom being a mother and out of concern with all my aunties whom I love started saying that you two would make a perfect match. Since we are in the same field we exchanged emails and once in  while we talked through emails and all. This guy after getting all the help he needed with the articles he needed to publish in english and all stopped talking to me for some reason, oh and the reason he justified his act even though he was aware of everyone's intentions was that "I left home and him" and the funny thing is that i was leaving even before I met him and it had nothing to do with this guy in the first place and he knew from the start before exchanging emails and all. Oh well here goes another relationship. 

So, while I was busy struggling with this guy and all, being the new girl in town, all the guys in our community who were single started hitting on me. So I just quit hanging out with those guys (this guy is a friend of the family and I could not ditch him that easily), but one of them being as persistent as guys can be did not back off and actually said that he'd say this and that to my parents and he'd stop hanging out with me as the only person I knew and all. SO I had to kinda date him. So what happend next was that after I think a couple of months he said I'm cheating on him, with whom and when or where I still don't know. So I just said I'm done with this stupid relationship and all. By the way the guy still was trying to fix things up for about a year after I broke everything off. Honestly I can tollerate many things but I guess 2 times in my life I could not tollerate what was told and this would be the second one, of course the first one was the stupid thing that guy (from the bottom he's e the third) said about my family.

I have gone on dates after all these things happened in the past two years but I have never wanted to date any of the guys I have dated. To some extend i don't trust men anymore and I sometimes wonder is there a man who can break the ice and free me or not. I guess guys don't do these sort of things anymore now a days.

Well, now all the messy and bothersome stuff is out of the way so if I start talking nonsense i guess you'd understand where its coming from and all.

I'll try to come back soon but with these weekly quizes and tests and all I'm not sure when I'll be back. Thanks for listening to me today too.

I love you and good night